I am ready for it to stop being cold. One of my jobs is driving a train in an outdoor mall, so when it is too cold the mall does not run the train and then I can’t do my job. No one wants to take their children to ride the train if it is below freezing outside. That’s understandable. But I still need to work.
Thankfully my other job at the restaurant has been able to give me some extra hours that help balance out the hours I have lost with the train job because of the weather a little bit. It is supposed to get warm again this weekend so hopefully I am able to work the hours I am supposed to at the train.
My roommate Jeans had this planner with “inspirational” sayings in it, that she went through and added comments to, and she gave me this one. I have it hanging up in our room by my bed. Some days it motivates me to make the time and space to add good things to my life but most days it is frustrating because I want to add good things to my life but I already feel overwhelmed with my life and just don’t have time.
Quiet is a word that has often be used to describe me for my entire life by people who know me. That is fine, it is how I would describe myself. However, it also means for me that when I speak, I want people to pay attention. I don’t speak just for the sake of hearing my own voice, if I speak it is because I feel like I actually have something to add to the conversation.
This is why it is one of my biggest peeves to be cut off or spoken over, while I recognize these things are not usually done on purpose, it has happened to me often enough that I still think it is incredibly rude and hurtful.
I am not a competitive person by nature, so when I get cut off or spoken over I usually don’t say anything because I don’t want to have to compete for someones attention. I won’t compete for a chance to speak.
I spend a lot of time in my own head, so when this would happen so often when I was younger I would ask myself, ‘did I actually speak or was it just in my head?’
It hurts to be spoken over. It tells me that what I have to say or contribute to a conversation does not matter to the person or group that I am speaking to. It makes me less likely to want to speak to that person or group again or at the very least reevaluate if it is worth speaking up next time. I would rather stay quiet than waste what I have to say on people who do not care to listen to what have to say.
One of the ways that Hillside and World Horizons do ministry is through art. We run Gallery Edit in the front of our office in Richmond, VA which is a model for art galleries in our Missions fields. Art as Mission is more than pictures of Jesus and crosses. Every art piece comes with a story of how it relates to the artist’s faith in Christ. It is a way to connect faith and culture, and to invite people into conversations about Jesus Christ.
This evening I got to talk on the phone with my college roommate, Carolyn. I have missed her and I am glad we got to talk. It was good to just catch up on life after college and talk about the things going on in each others lives.